Every time she steps in everything seems to grow cold and black in every inch of my life.. It feels like she's sucking all the life in me. I can't stand and I can't breathe.. Everything is my fault and never hers. She'll always be the apple of the eye to everybody. Jealous? Not one bit.. She just gets to my nerves.
She hurts a lot of people. She fools a lot of people and people cram up to her? The hell!! Why can't they see that facade that she's putting up? Why can't they see that all she's doing is taking advantage at them! All they really see is her, even though everything she does is stinging them in their butts! Do they really care? No! And who ends up cleaning the mess she's making? Me..
Blame me for things i won't do for that devil! Blame me, for trying not trying to suck up to them! Blame me, coz that's all they ever do!! No! I don't think life is fair.. Let me counts the ways..
They raise her up.. gave her everything she ever wanted..
She studied somewhere far away.. ( to my relief i hope she never came back!)
What did she do in return? Curse them in every possible way she could. Blame them for the life she's having... Which by the way have everything she have! And what the hell did she got mad at? Just because they can't send her the money she's asking after she spent all the money that was suppose for her exams! what did she do? Curse them all!! Hah!
And what the hell did they do after that?? Cradle her back to their arms as if nothing was wrong!! Fuck then all! They could all live all their lives doomed!! Jealous? Not one bit, more on the line of sick to the stomach, mad for their blindness and things like that...
It won't have meant something to me, when everytime she does that, There's always someone like me who gets the blame for things she do and don't so. Fuck them all! They could all suck up that devil to their bones!!!
Let me see, what were the moments they remember i exist? Ah, here's one.. when they're looking for someone to blame.. When they're looking for something to put all their anger too.. Yes i'll always be there to catch it all up! As if am a doll, who could take everything up..
I guess the world is to small for us.. If she won't die.. Could I just go ahead so I could rest well without all these angst in life??
I guess that's unfair too.. Coz that doesn't seem to happen no matter what... I just hope killing someone wasn't a great sin! Then the world would have been a better place without people who claim God loves them more than the other! Love them my ass! I'll curse you foreveer...
Why do you let a lot of people suffer because of you? Why didn't you just die somewhere we never knew!! I curse the day you were born in thes worls.. Coz that day started all the pain we all feels! I just hope they didn't make that mistake and mom didn't carry you! Your like the satan in our lives and we can't just live with you!!
I hope you die soon, from all those drama of being sick and scaring everyone off! I hope you really do die so we'll all live happily!!!
